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a future photographer?

I have left my camera in Little Girl Princess's reach, and the pictures she takes are... well, they're interesting.

after a long much needed break...

I stopped reading other people's blogs for a while. I don't know, I guess my self-confidence is low enough that I couldn't handle it. My house is messy, my kids aren't perfect and sometimes I feel like I am just too over-whelmed to continue as a stay-at-home-mom. I read a few blogs today, and I have found that if I just read a few at a time, I can be enlightened, and I can also understand better that we are all in the same boat here. The truth is that I like being a SAHM, it's just that I want to make my own income, mainly so that I can afford big house projects (for someone else to do). I have enough trouble keeping the house organized and clean without worrying about decorating. A little bit at a time is how I'm handling it now. This summer though, I have been trying to concentrate on the kids having fun, and participating in many adventures to remember before they head back to school. When they are in school will be a good, no a GREAT time to get into the beautification process of my house. :) I just can't believe that Big Girl Princess will be in 3rd grade, and Baby Princess will be in 3K! I guess that makes her Little Girl Princess now...

This blog started to talk about something totally different, and ended up on the kids growing up and me being kind of frightened by it. I'm not sad, I am very glad that I am able to see them grow up and get older. I often think though how weird it is that I am a SAHM, I never ever thought I would be, but here I am, and it's a great way to build a foundation for my kids. I sometimes wish that I studied home economics past high school though.

Small-claims court

I remember being completely addicted to those shows, like "Judge Judy," or "Cristina's Court," but I stopped watching them, because I really didn't have the time to watch TV once I got better from the surgeries and chemo treatments. Today I watched "People's Court," just because it was on, and for old times sake, and I really couldn't handle watching it. Our world is full of complete idiots! I guess I liked watching it before because my self-confidence was low and I felt better knowing that at least I'm "not as bad as they are." Really, it's sad, but I'm not to be pitied, I'm really pretty embarrassed that I used to watch that crap so much!

What's up?

This morning, a few minutes ago actually, I saw a preview for a movie "Julie and Julia," based on two true stories, and I teared up a little bit. It looks like a movie that will truly touch me though. "Julie & Julia" trailer.

The Mom's "Salary"

Stay-at-Home-Moms are seen differently by different people. On Bravo we learn about "Real Housewives," that aren't really housewives, and NOT real just portrayed a certain way for TV. I am told often, by different people, about how great the sacrifice I'm making by staying at home to care for my children. This is what I think though, as soon as I made a salary for what I did as a real stay-at-home-mom, I would not be appreciated and probably resented. According to a story on Yahoo! , I would make about $122,000. I think (just my opinion, BTW) that the same people who say we should be paid for what we do would jump up and say that we shouldn't be paid for what we do because it's not really that much work. To tell you the truth, I would like to make money so we could have a second income - it would be really nice in the current economy, but I think about what I would have to spend my money on. I would have to hire a babysitter, a cleaning service, if not a cook then we would have to buy our meals somewhere, a seamstress (since I have started sewing the kids clothes), a personal assistant to attend PTO and room mother meetings, and possibly a massage therapist because I would go crazy and be very tense. If I made my own money I would want to be able to buy myself new clothes and shoes and spa appointments. If I had to pay for the stuff that I do now then I may think it's not done to my approval, so I would feel like I was doing twice the work, just for the second income. Money doesn't buy everything, and I guess not my sanity.

Sewing

I have just started sewing, and I love it. I find that it is the best therapy ever. I am able to think and be productive unlike running which is just thinking with no productivity. I know that if my feelings are hurt then I close myself off, and avoid all confrontation because I don't want to cry. Sewing has helped me spend less time on the computer, which I find very unhealthy if you spend a lot of time without other adults to keep you company, as most stay-at-home-moms will do. I have been able to make two dresses (so far) for both of my children, I'm currently working on the third in a different more complicated style. I was going to not sew today because my "teacher" and I will usually sew together on Tuesday and Thursday when both kids are in school. I am thinking though, that with some left over fabric I may try making a skort for little princess since I am borrowing that pattern. I spent too much time on Facebook this morning, which lead me to read other stuff on other sites and I need to take a break again. I have thought about going unplugged for a week, but my idea was quickly shot down from other family members, I may have to get that idea going again. We can all use our creative juices and not watch TV or "play" on the computer. I feel domestic on a whole other level when I sew, I was able to see talent in my work right off (not to toot my own horn), unlike cooking which always seems like such work to me. I am proud of the dresses I have made for my kids so far, and that just makes me feel good. There are times when I feel like the worst mom ever, and I compare my own mothering to other peers of mine, but this makes me happier, and therefore I feel like a better mother for it. Now, I'm off to sew! :)