Monday, October 19, 2009

clarity in the sunshine

After picking up Little Princess from school today I met a friend and her kids at the park. What a beautiful day it was too! The sun was out, after many rainy cool days and there was not a cloud in the sky, just some plane exhaust that Little Princess pointed out to be in an "X." I guess it was the sunshine and the great conversation, but I realized that I am in a place now where I am at my happiest. I have great friends, my family is healthy and we are happy. I think all I needed was a sunny day to feel better. I also realized something else while watching the "Real Time with Bill Mahar," some people have no sense of humor. I like being able to laugh at fake news shows, and yellow journalism, but there are people that take everything to be true, and can't laugh at it. Maybe that's sad, but I think it just makes it funnier.

Monday, October 12, 2009

friends forever?

I have been preoccupied with thoughts of past friendships lately. I guess, I was really hurt, more than I realize, by a girl that I had been friends with for so long. Anyway, she dumped me because I think too liberally for her taste. I am one of those people that will be friends with you 4EVR. I really don't like holding ill feelings toward others, I am actually really easy to please, in fact, I avoid confrontation so much that I will sit and take it so that I won't have to deal with jealousy or hate. Those are two emotions that I feel like are a waste of energy. Anyway, I haven't blogged in so long because I couldn't get these friendship thoughts out of my head. I really don't get not setting the differences aside and remaining friends with people. I hope that the friends I have know that I'm in it for a lifetime, that's just how I am. I find that if my feelings are hurt, I can just let it go, and maybe not spend so much time with that person that hurts me, until eventually we are no longer in each others' life. It just isn't healthy to hold feelings of doubt with people you love.

and, I also just wanted to say that I think making anonymous comments on someone's blog is a pansy-ass cowardly thing to do.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

so I pray...

and I let everything go to God. I deleted a post I made that was highly negative, and unnecessary. I, on impulse, said OMFG on some poll, and I have asked for forgiveness on that. The god I believe in forgives me, forgives all sin. I don't need to be judged by other people who may like to think they are higher on some totem pole of whom God loves because they may think they live their life with no sin. One thing that I am sure of, we are all with sin, and I believe that we are all forgiven. I believe in the Trinity, and with that, I am forgiven of my sin. I pray about it, and I let God take care of it from there. I don't need added stress in my life, and I know God doesn't want me to have it either.

Does that answer your question Anonymous? LEAVE ME ALONE! Please!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

If I were a millionaire...

I would hire Tim Gunn as my personal stylist, and Jeff Lewis as my house remodeler and decorator. Well, and I'd probably have to let Bravo in, after everything is fabulous.